I am in an incredibly dark and foreboading mood at the moment. I feel angry and sad, depressed and empty all at the same time, and it is a bit overwhelming.

I am trying to sort somethings out in mylife at the moment and get my priorities straight, decide what I want and need to do....

Thanks for the Comment Tdhs- (no offence taken)

I have been sitting here the last two hours wondering why I am sitting here.

//Why do I sit here willing you to talk to me? I'm giving up already... so soon into the fight, you must forgive my love for you...//

Then I notice that it is all for a bunch of depressing nonsense that I really want to happen, but don't at the same time.

Sorry it has been so long since I posted, I am just been a bit busy is all, and unable to use the PC becasue of Gran's new addiction to this game..... Ah well, I really hope that she doesn't lose her head because I signed out of her account to get on mine =shudders=
She most likely will though... so I have no idea why I even worry, if that made any sense.

I have been trying to sort out my emotions for certain people and decide just how I really feel about them, =love, hate, like, dislike, crush on, REALLY hate???= Its very confusing buisness this. and I have been really busy trying to keep my damn family out of my personal life.

As a very wise woman from Bridget Jones's Diary once said, "Fuck the whole, fucking lot of them!" I sooo have to agree damnit! Why can't they see that yes OMFG they are humans and prone to making mistakes to!!! Whoa what a fucking revelation there, that should go in the fucking Bible! Damn. But no, silly me, getting carried away AGAIN... they are perfect the little fuckers, and indeed it is me that has changed (at least that I will admit to in some respects) and they have just stayed jolly old same old, hey hey, why can't I see that? CAUSE ITS A FUCKING LIE!! THATS RIGHT~! Damn, you know how much I love you? You don't, because I would never tell you and you would probably turn me into a toad if I did, but it really hurts me to see just how.... right you think you are.

I have no idea really why I just wrote all of that nonsense. I hope sincerely that NO one understands that, it should be pretty easy to keep any know person confused, I am usually pretty good at that.

I really should be going. I am tired and Isie still isn't back, but then I really haven't been waiting that long.

I am really sorry if I have made anyone who knows me and reads this and happens to understand upset, It was not my intention, and if you did read this and I know you and you understood, if you even think about blurting this to anyone I do not want you to tell you will find yourself either in very bad pain or hated by everyone.

Blessed Be!!

Peas out

~Danny~