I will forget..... somehow....

Someday I will be able to forget eveything mean and bad that has ever happened to me. Someday I will be able to forget the man that I was madly in love with and hoping to spend a very long time if not the rest of m life with, and the fact that when I spoke to him on the Telephone last night sitting there on the edge of my seat hoping that everything was okay with him after about a fortnight of not speaking because he refused my calls and Im's, that he was not hurt that his family was allright, and then the deep sense of loss and sharp pain when he finnally told me outright that he wanted nothing more to do with me and that he never wanted to speak to me again.
I ask my self why, what have I done? did I not love him enough? did he find out some of my well hidden secrets? (which personally I have no problem with....*rolls eyes at own stupidity*) Well I think that if I try and forget perhaps I can.... I am just sitting here and writing a bunch of nothing for the sake of.... well, for no sake really.... I am just so confused, and I would like to thank Dill for always listening to my prattling nonsense and assuring me that I am not the royal pain in the ass that I think I am eventhough I don't believe him I thank him, he and his Forum are a big part of the reason that I am still alive today. Thanks a bunch Dill. You Rock, and Isie too of course, you're both such a sweet couple.
Jazzeh hun, I think that we should post in eachothers blogs, that way they will be mor diverse.....*shifty eyes* Toots

~Danneh~