Procrastination

Procrastinate, its a lovely feeling once you get used to it you know.

Yeah.

Sorry it has been so long since I have posted... -blushes-

I have been busy as hell just working and trying to get everything set for my trip to Korea.... -sigh- sadly things don't always work as we would like them to. Yeah... but hopefully my life won't be as huge a mess that I think that it is headed to be.... Yeah... talk more later, its getting late and I have to wake up early for work...

Yeah...

PEAS out

~Danny

Oookay, scary movies and silly hell

Hell, thats where they would send me for who I am....

But thats fine, I don't really care because these outdated nonsensical beliefs.

I stood there listening to my very own condemnation and I laughed, I laughed in the face of those who would control the very air that I breath. I have it from my good friend Zak, who says that once you are able to laugh out right at those who would be you master, they have no more control over you. -sigh- (mooshie stuff here) -sigh- I guess not, he says it isn't... I do though... I think he is like this way cool guy, and I hope that I do get to meet him when I get to London.. that would sooooo rock!!!!!! Yes! Ray, Jo, Zak and me baby!!! Tee hee, we'd make a great team!! Wooo!!

Well, I had better go now, yeah...............

Ooooh then we'll just have to wait for Jas to get old enough to coome and visit and we'll have great fun!!

Yay!!! I am happy, happier than I have been in a looooooooong time!! Yes... well I am going for real now.

~Danny

PS. I want to thank Nopuedesereso for the comment. Thanks so much.

Scattered thoughts

Sudden darkness veils my mind and I am lost in a haze of forgetfulness. I linger in that place between sheer joy and utter despair. I have started my new job and I am hoping and praying that everything will go as smoothly that I first hoped that it would. sometimes I think that I will never be able to reach that goal and I will stay here to rot in the infernal embrace of my family's religious fanaticisim. Forget the fact that I am tortured mentally and spiritually, daily, and I cannot get out any other way than I have planned to do, but alas, all good things take time.... No?

Si... asi es, lo que quieres mas de todo no lo puedes tener.... sin dolor.... asi es.

That is the story of my sad life, but then it leads me to think... am I the only one? Of course not! How blasphemous to even let the thought cross my mind, form within my weak conciousnous. Bad Karma that.

Ah well, I suppose that I am fated to gather bad Karma to myself seeing that most everything that I do seems to plague me and haunt my waking dreams. I see visions of the future and visions of the past, I am haunted by the gohsts of those that hate me and those I thought loved me.... but alas, I am lost and unaware of my physical surroundings unless they should strike out and harm me or let me know that they are there in some other way.

Nonsense so they say... but that is what they always say is it not? Ha ha ahhhh...

Let it all go... to nothingness. wither and die in this pleasant hell...

goodbye.

PEAS out

~Danny