Sun light streams
In little golden bars
Across the Flower
Dappled ground all around

There we are sitting
In that circle
Of our love and light
You’re kissing me
I’m telling you
I love you so.

We’re sitting in
Kapiolani Park
Loving each other
Talking of things to come.

The little children run and play
As the parents
Dance a hula to the Ukulele

We’re kissing again
To a song about
Sweet Hawaiian love,
I break the hold
You have on my lips
Whispering, “My Ku’uipo”
(My love, My darling)

There I am
Wishing this would never end.
Kiss me again
And declare your love for me,
So that I can sit here
At times like these
And rememberThe beautiful things we shared.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wrote this today as I sat at work doing nothing but thinking, and I remembered one of the most lovely times in my entire life. I was with my love, my bf of two years, and we were sitting in Kapiolani Park, and nice garden in Honolulu and we were doing just what the poem says we were... We were talking of our love and devotion for one another and what we would do in the future, we had hoped to marry and start a life together. Anyway, I was sitting there and the poem just started coming out of my mouth, and so I got a pen and my notebook/journal and begun to write what came, and it seemed as I wrote the memories I was living them again and I felt fulfilled. I could feel his tenderly hungry lips enclosing mine in their sensuous embrace and his lithe arms around me. It was a truly amazing feeling, and wouldn't you know that as soon as the poem was finieshed the feeling and happiness and memories left me with a deep aching void inside.

I am a very down to earth person, don't get me wrong, but I believe also in the supernatural and I think that those who have crossed over, passed the veil, died whatever you want to call it, can communicate with us when they really want to or need to, and I believe that my lover came to let me know that he really does love me and cares still for how he feels, and I am glad he chose that memory, it was so sweet and fulfilling.

I am sorry to have bored you all with this, Just a little more of my nonsense, eh? I have been talking to Zakkie too much damn cannadian is making me say "eh" LMAO I love you Zakkie you knw that.

Well any how, I am still happy from that all and not really depressed about his passing any more now that I know that he loves me. And damn I never knew he was such a good poet.



PEAS out

~Danny~

Big Watches?

Oh so clear to me
Is that which I must do.

So I set out
On that Road
That leads to forgetting you.

The way is long and hard,
Its obstacles
Are not a few.
Why must I travel
This sad and lonely path
Just for my
Love to be insanely refueled
I know that just as I think
I have reached the end,
The mighty gale of you
Will blow me back
To where I was before.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Yes big watches, I got a new wrist-watch the otherday and it is majorly sexy! it has one of the thick bands!~! =rolls eyeses= Right then, I had an okay day, worked, took a short nap when I got home then went out with my mate for a milk-shake and some chippies!!

I had an interesting conversation with a lady at Waikiki Beach on sunday, she was this really wierd looking lady that came up to me to tell me about God, and I told her that I already worship God and she got all excited and started calling me "brother" so when she saw my funny face she asked which God I worship and I told her Pan, Osiris and sometimes Jesus. Wow was she shocked, she turned white as a ghost! She seriously looked at me as if I had just ascended from the pit of hell or something, and so I asked her what her problem was... and she just opened and closed her mouth a few times and walked away from me. =Rolls eyes=

Yeah... heh heh.... blah

PEAS out

~Danny~

Gosh is that a.... what is that?

What is it? What is it? Well you see that is really none of your business is it!?

I am watching Pearl Harbour, damn mooshie film! I am sooo bored right now that it isn't even Funny.....

What shall I write about?
The life that was
Dropped by you
When you hung yourself
Above that little
Yellow chair

I cry myself to sleep
Knowing I'll never see
Thos beautiful eyes
Shining with love for me,
Oh I wish
That just once
I could hear you voice again.
Please I beg,
Thouch my life
To let me know,
What you want from me.
Close the door that
You left hanging wide open.

Why? WHY?
If you won't tell me
That you love me still
Leave me alone at least!
I am tired of this
Constant nagging Hunger
For you.
I long for closure at least.
So encircle me
Circle me round about
Drawing that sacred protection
Thats is invoked
By your Love....

PUHlease!!!
I am sooo tired of writing about my nonsense. I think I am going for now, I have some things to take care of on the forum. Talk later about my nonsense more... yes.

PEAS out

~Danny~

I had one of those days today where I just wished it would end then the next I knew it was over, and I was like "whoa, a wish com true." But if I ever happened to wish that a day would last longer becasue it was good, it wouldn't happen.

Ah well, I have decided that I whine waaaaay too much, because, well I don't really know that yet. I have been fristrated becasue things keep going wrong or things that I expect to happen don't happen and I am left standing there looking stupid and dumb. Then I think that it is my fault, and well, some of it is, admitedly, but I KNOW that it is not ALL my fault.

I thought that I was going to lose that friend, I am glad I didn't, but I am still being treated second class next to the newer members, or that is how I feel, and I will be honest and say that how I feel is not always right or how things are, but I feel as if, I, being with this the longest and having put my all into it, perhaps not contributing all that a few others have (we all have different capabilities) but I have, it is the only place pretty much that I have spent my time since it came into being, and I love it. I love it even more that that damn hacker ass cracked it again, cause it shows out resolve, but when I am treated second class to those who have been there less time than I and haven't begged the maker not to delete when he got depressed or angry because almost no members but us were there posting, or spent hours encouraging him to go on and rebuild after we got it all restored, it makes me feel hurt and confused, even though the person swears up and down that is not what is happening. Tell me please why I am not the only one seeing it and experiencing it then? Tell me why. Is it some type of mass hysteria or sommat? I mean really lets think about this please.

Am I being pushed away in such a way that they want me to leave so that they don't have to say or have me saying that they kicked me out? Or am I just being a paranoid freak who doesn't know even the beginning of what he is talking about. =Sigh= I am confused, help me.

I don't want to think this way about my friends I really don't, but why do I get this feeling even after I have "made up" and told what was on my mind? Well, I will say that I am not getting this from the two other 'senior' staff. Oh and that, why if I have been told that I am considered a 'senior' staff am I not mentioned as one when others are named, or even treated like one?

Goddess I know that this is all shite but it is how I feel, and I can't say that I am going to take a break from it all, it would be said that I am shirking my responsibilities and I shouldn't have a position in that case, and then I would probably have to leave, which I really do not want to do, even though I have considered it.... =sigh= damn it all.

I think that I shall just give it time, afet a while if it is still going on then I sahll complain more.

PEAS out

~Danny~

Nothing's free babe
Thats what they say,
But I'm telling you now,
Love, that I gave
My all to you,
Didn't ask for anything, hun,
Placed it in your hands,
And walked away
So you could think.
Just like you asked Babe,
Remember when you
Said to me you loved
Me but you needed time?
I said "okay".

After a real long time
When I came back
I found my love
All over the floor
And there you were
Hanging above the door.

So now I see, babe,
Nothing is free

Not even me....
Especially not me,
See, I chained myself
To the light post of
Your love so long ago
And waited and waited
For that promising glow
But now I see,
It nothing more
Than a cold, hard and empty Shell.

And I'm chained to
This empty shell
Forever more....

That is right, nothing is free, not even love anymore, I hate life it is so messed up, and I have no idea why I spent most of my day talking and ironing things out if everything is just going to stay the same. I am utterly confused, and I want answers that I think I will never get.

TO hell with it, I'll just play along because I really don't want to mess up anymore than I already have... I am oh so confused! I want to just forget I ever knew anything! just let it all go and forget my pain and anger.... damn it iall

PEAS out

~Danny~

I am in an incredibly dark and foreboading mood at the moment. I feel angry and sad, depressed and empty all at the same time, and it is a bit overwhelming.

I am trying to sort somethings out in mylife at the moment and get my priorities straight, decide what I want and need to do....

Thanks for the Comment Tdhs- (no offence taken)

I have been sitting here the last two hours wondering why I am sitting here.

//Why do I sit here willing you to talk to me? I'm giving up already... so soon into the fight, you must forgive my love for you...//

Then I notice that it is all for a bunch of depressing nonsense that I really want to happen, but don't at the same time.

Sorry it has been so long since I posted, I am just been a bit busy is all, and unable to use the PC becasue of Gran's new addiction to this game..... Ah well, I really hope that she doesn't lose her head because I signed out of her account to get on mine =shudders=
She most likely will though... so I have no idea why I even worry, if that made any sense.

I have been trying to sort out my emotions for certain people and decide just how I really feel about them, =love, hate, like, dislike, crush on, REALLY hate???= Its very confusing buisness this. and I have been really busy trying to keep my damn family out of my personal life.

As a very wise woman from Bridget Jones's Diary once said, "Fuck the whole, fucking lot of them!" I sooo have to agree damnit! Why can't they see that yes OMFG they are humans and prone to making mistakes to!!! Whoa what a fucking revelation there, that should go in the fucking Bible! Damn. But no, silly me, getting carried away AGAIN... they are perfect the little fuckers, and indeed it is me that has changed (at least that I will admit to in some respects) and they have just stayed jolly old same old, hey hey, why can't I see that? CAUSE ITS A FUCKING LIE!! THATS RIGHT~! Damn, you know how much I love you? You don't, because I would never tell you and you would probably turn me into a toad if I did, but it really hurts me to see just how.... right you think you are.

I have no idea really why I just wrote all of that nonsense. I hope sincerely that NO one understands that, it should be pretty easy to keep any know person confused, I am usually pretty good at that.

I really should be going. I am tired and Isie still isn't back, but then I really haven't been waiting that long.

I am really sorry if I have made anyone who knows me and reads this and happens to understand upset, It was not my intention, and if you did read this and I know you and you understood, if you even think about blurting this to anyone I do not want you to tell you will find yourself either in very bad pain or hated by everyone.

Blessed Be!!

Peas out

~Danny~

Damn HACKERS!!!!

I hate you! EVERY DAMN SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!

May your Karma return to you by the Law of Three!

I hope you all get turned into cockroaches in your next lives you filthy...things!

As you might have guessed the feckers have dealt another deadly blow, I am a member of the staff at Rohan, the forum that I spoke about the other day, well it seems some bastard has taken it to their mind that this lovely community should be destroyed because they are not happy seeing people happy besides themselves! I hate it that some can be so bent of hate, you may ask why I speak as if I know the bastard, well I guess you can say that I do, in a way, you see they tried to do this before and did not succeed, so now they come back to try again, well listen here you fuckers, we will succeed damn you!! We are better than you!

I hate that person!

Hate

~Danny

Meh....

I was going to say something..... but it has slipped my mind.... Damn!

Peas Out!

I can spam if I want to!!!!!

~Danny

Depression Extraordinare....

Hate me, hurt me, sell me, kill me....

I am feeling really weird at the moment, I mean like crazy depressed, I have this feeling in my stomach that swells into my chest, you know where the heart is supposed to be? It feels like a great big empty space, nothingness inside of me....

I want to talk to someone but everyone is off line or not talking... so I suppose that I'll just sit here and soak in my misery and wish that more people would read my blog, and if the do read it to FECKING COMMENT, it would really help to know that this isn't a piece of shite blog that no one but my ffew friends read, and then only to keep me from eating them....

I don't care what you say either... tell me that I am the stupidest moron alive and that I belong in a mental health unit somewere far away from the rest of civilised humans. It doesn't even have to be that coherent, you can just make letters as such ";ljakdjoia oillrfjhgliah ;l;kfhdgihr," and I would be elated! really.... but then if you wasted all of your precious time actually reading this crap then might as well tell me how much you hated it.

Peas

~Danny

Yes... and what!?

Furnish me with things
To say you did not
Leave me all alone.

Take my hand
And lead me away
Help me to forget
The pain
That's buried so deep...

Make yourself accountable
Let the world know
Whats happenning...
Like you did when I gave my love to you,
Remember? Everyone knew.

Don't hold my hand Damn you!
It hurts still from
When you crushed it
Between my heart and the ground,
When you shattered me to pieces...

Remember?

Don't go and give me any shite about writing about someone fucking me over please. It was worse than just a simple fuck over, I could have handeled that. And I handle this by writing, that is my release.

Sorry if that came out rude, I'm not trying to be I swear, I just... I'm not sure really... thats all

PEAS

~Danny

Come and play...

Come and play with me
If you dare....
And see what things
There are to see
In this land of
Foreboding darkness
Where I am King
And I make the laws
And rule over everyone
And everything.
Come and dance with me
The dance that I have devised
Let me take you over
And own your silly nothing life,
Then we'll all be happy,
Satisfied...
You and I.


I have no idea why I wrote this, it just sort of came out today while I was sitting doing nothing but reading and I had the urge to write and all of a sudden the words just begun to flood into my head and I hurried scribbling them down on the paper forgettin time and space, it was a wonderful experience, Pure Bliss. I wish that I could live my entire life like that... it would be heaven on earth, Tir Na no'og.

I have to leave the house early tommorrow morning, I have to drive my mum somewhere.... I'll be leaving about 5ish so I don't think that I'll be going to sleep tonight... I have lots to do. Yessir...:P Well talk later.

Peas Out

~Danny~

Foolishness

Daily I lose my mind,
Its then that I think the most about you,
While I'm sitting alone
And mourning my foolishness
I think of the things
I said to you
While we were sitting alone
And loving our foolishness

I told you I loved you,
You whispered the same too.
We talked about
Our lives to come
And spoke of the
Things we'd do.
We'd sit for hours on end
And just hold eatchother's hand.

I loved you babe
Why'd you go away?
I'm crying for you babe,
Why'd y ou have to fly away.

How I used to be, thats what gets to me and scares me making me think that I drive them all away from me with my maddness. I guess it is inevitable... it has always happened.....

Peas Out

~Danny~

Thoughts and pain....

I thought of you today
And cried for you today...
I sat and stared
At my photo of you today.

Today I remembered
The things you used to say
Just to make me feel better.
Today I sang the song
That we used to sing together,
It made me cry
When I realised that
Mine was the only voice singing.

I cried for you today
I tore up my
Photo of you today...
I decided to forget
And move on today.

Damn am I tired of the pain, I wish that I could just make this poem a reality. But no, I have done the opposite, I framed that photo today and built a shrine to it....

Peas Out.

~Danny

What? Who are you?

Empty and hurting,
Crying inside
Wondering when you're
Gonna pick up that phone
And dial my number
And whisper so quietly
That I have to give you all
My listening abilities.

Crying here all alone,
Feeling cold inside and out,
Sure I have friends
And we talk a lot,
Not saying much.
I miss that sweet clear voice
Telling me so softly
Its gentle love for me...

Tell me please somehow
That you still love me,
I'll forget the rope
That took you away from me
And listen real hard,
Like I used to then,
I know that I love you...
Tell me please.... Do you love me?

I need closure damnit!

Peas

~Danny

The RidderMark

You must Visit this Web site! It is isn't done yet, but it will lead you to the Forum and soon it shall be done!!

Http://www.theriddermark.com

I am really depressed to day... I just feel as if my life is falling appart and everything that I have dreamed of and wanted and planned will never happen and I will always be a big emotional wreck. =sigh=


Demented....

Thats how I feel all stoopid and dumb, no one likes me... and even the relationships that I have have turned almost bad because I am an idiot.

Dark sayings fill my soul
As hopes of pain
Flood my brain
I want to die
And be done with this
But it won't happen,
I never get what I want.
Slay me damnit drive me through.
Pierce me like you do.
I want to die, whats the use.
Damn me
Damn
Damn

Peas

~Danny

Sweet Mooshies

I always told you my feelings
Maybe too much,
But now when you're hurting
Why do you hold back?

I've never pushed you away,
I'll never think you're stupid,
And if you ever do hate me,
I'll love you anyway.

You light up my life,
and pains me to watch you hurt.
Please, love, don't push me away.
Don't think I don't know what it
Is like to feel pain so deep
Inside that it can't be shared.
I do, love, and I hurt for you.

I love to write mooshies when I am in the mood for it... which is very seldom, so I take the chance when I can... seems that ther are a lot of weird peopl oout there that could care less about the better darker stuff. damn them all =rolls eyes=

=watches MSN waiting for Isie to sign on= She should any minute now.... it is already late there... Hummm... ah well I am bored as you have probably noticed... and damn... I wish I could do something right for just once in my life!! =rolls eyes again=

Peas Out

~Danny~

Worse than slavery...

And when I think of all the time that we just sat around and talked nothing I begin to feel that dull ache that makes me double over in pain.

I got a friend to practise my Spanish with wooooo!! I feel speeeeeeshul:P

Well this post did not come out right because the thing messed all up.... and lost everything that I wrote. blah...

Peas Out

~Danny

Echo Echo...eChoooo...ech...ec...e.........

Empty to the point of bursting
Singing of my nothingness.
Closing my eyes
so that I will not see that something
that hurts me inside out.
Clawing and tearing at me
Ripping me up inside
I need to forget the existence
That leads me to this loneliness...


Yes... emptiness... It draws me to itself as a living thing luring the weak and unwary into its lair to be devoured...

Peas Out

~Danny

Can I be done?

Who hasn't said that to their mum before?> I have plenty of times... And now I say it to my demented self, begging to be free.

I'm reall tired
Of being sane
So I close my eyes
And play the game
That brings back
The hurtful things
To remind me
Of when I was mad,
Twas not so long ago...
But when I remember
What it was like
I thank the Gods
That I am sane.
I close my eyes again
To play that game
That brings back
The painful things
To remind me
Of when I was sane,
Twas not so long ago...
But then I remember
what it was like.
And so it goes, on and on.

Peas out

~Danny

OOOh yes

Oooooh Lovely perfection. =SIGH=

I have been thinking.. I want... gee, I don't remember what I want. Perhaps that isn't bad, because I mean seeing as we are back to it only ever being me that reads this damn piece of shite blog!!

wHY do I put up with you damnit! =rolls eyes=

Sorry you'll have to forgive me and my various weird person cling ons... they're something like parasites.

Strummin my pain with his fingers.....

Tell me what you see
I'll tell you what is real
Tell me how you feel
I'll tell you if you'll survive.

Come on hun leave it to me.
I know better than you do
You don't listen to my insane laughter
Screming my love for you on the rootops
Just like that damn fiddler.

Why can't you see that I am just
Looking for a reason for
Taking your life from you
So I can keep it for mine.

Let go of me and
I will show you the way out of this labyrinth
The labyrinth of my soul
That you've lost us both in.
Kissing me when I don't
Want you to.
Fogetting me when I want
You close to me....

Peas Out

~Danny

Momentary Sanity

o_O Whoa... Had quite a scare today! Had my moment of sanity... I did. Twas weird.

I feel.... weird.... I don't quite know how to explain it. I am sitting here wating for that little conversation thing to blink alerting me that you are really there and not just ignoring me.... I am real sad cause I feel as if our relationship is falling apart, falling to pieces all around my lonely feet as I stand alone unprotected from the things I see.

IT BLINKS!! and its you telling me that you love me. still I long for that time when all was sweet oblivion and life was nothing but a dream. Take me back to when we loved our pain and hurt was nothing but gain. When we could careless about the world and had only ourselves. I love you. I love you.

Peas Out

~Danny~

Losing Sanity

Thanking Myself for the utter nonsense of the day that I am trying to get used to little by little. And standing in this empty space I wonder what to do....

Write nonsense and speak it to?

Whatever I am bored out of my mind.

Peas out

~Danneh~

Saddness what to do.....

Why do we tie ourselves down with meaningless things that hurt our friends?
Why do we let them hate us when we know so well what it is
That would make them well, but still we hold back
Not wanting to share with them, the sweetness of the pain
That fills our minds and hearts. Why?
Why must we make enemies of ourselves, and hide from those we love as though
They are there to take from us what we fought so hard to win.

Find in your heart the ability to find
The pain that succumbs to your life's will....

Bleh.

Peas out

~Danneh~

I Beg Your Pardon!`

He is cute I'll give you that Jas, but NOT as cute as mine! So there. This is Danny's world so you can't change that fact here. Not here anyway.

I have had a mixed feelings day. First I went out for breakfast with Mum and her husband, it was actually amiable, and there was no shouting or name calling. And the food was great... I know it sounds weird, but I had a vegetarian sandwitch called "Joanne Loves it!" twas really yummy!

anyhow, after breakfast got dropped off at work and sat the entire day just watching that lump of a man that I take care of. around shower time he turned into a profanity screaming demon who enjoys skewering ppl on the end of his arm. He is a pain and a trial, and soon I shall be gone and leave him to another.... I feel sorry for whoever that may be...=rolls eyes=

Anyway, I revealed my secret to one more person today which I felt really worried about... cause I though they would hate me forever because of it... but so far they have said that they don't and I hope that that is true. Gotta goooo Toots

Peas out

~Danneh~

Moo moo.

Cant wait till you go to england!

BUY A DIGI CAM AND SEND ME PICS OR SOMTHING.

- is so excited -

Btw. I have a new b/f. His name is Elliot.

But i call him Ellie.

Cuz i'm kewl like that.

xD

Pic of Ellie.

Now i KNOW hes cuter than Mafasjfh.

Masfasjfh is That one guy you like.

Lol. I'm werid.

later.

Happiness Whore

What happened to the good old days? They are gone damnit! GONE! =rolls eyes= I must have at least one YELL in my post....

I have had another weirdly sad day, had dinner with my Aunt and Uncle that I mentioned earlier, went okay, found out that I speak improper Poruguese...oh wait... I knew that didn't I... HUH, they just must like rubbing it in.... =focuses on Portuguese book and talking to cousins only in portuguese= damn them all. =sigh= I have been sighing alot. Bom I say! BOM! that means good. Es que no me gusta cuando alguen me dice que soy estupido! Ya lo se! Intiendes? YA LO SE!! Damn idiots either forgot that I understand some french or intentionally insulted me a LOT in french all thoughout dinner.... Ahh well.

Tomorrow in the morning I have a breakfast date with Mum and her husband and gran. woooo can't wait =rolls eyes= it usually turns into a fight.... I cannot wait for the day that I get away from this hell! I am anticipating being in Japan by April, and Hope to the Lord and Lady that I have enough money after to make it over to England..... =sigh= I have been soo depressed over my crush...

I am so overwhelmed with the feelings welling up inside of me, that I am unable to express except to SOMEONE who is angry that I even have a crush on the person that I do. damnit... its not fair! why do I always have to whine!! why do I never have anything good to talk about... I never have any fun....

I did get a virtual postcard for my birthday from a friend that says, "In the Beginning God created the Heavens and the Earth," "So, tell me," "What was it like?"

Ja ja ja ja! I thought that was sooo cute! I wish I had friends to go out with during the day and on the weekends... heh... one real.... not that my friends that I have aren't real, just not here... friend to hang out with..... ah well....

Peas out

~Danneh

Depression.... something to love?

Why do I have to love someone who I am not able to love all the way? Why why why damnit! It is sooo unfair that I should be subjected to the beauty of someone who I am quite sure really could care less about me and hardly knows that I exist. I really am hoping that someday I will be able to find someone to share my heart with.... blah blah blah....

I am a little down today because I wasn't really able to spend any time with my mum for her birthday, as usual she is too busy for me. But that is to be expected right? =sigh=

Toots

~Danneh

=Sigh=

The worst birthday in the history of my life which has picked up an extra year today.

I was wakened by most of my cousins breaking and entering:P my room at 6 am this morning to sing happy birthday to me, sweet, I know, But HOW DARE THEY!! =is ungrateful= Okay, so I'm already in a sour mood. To top it all off, I have to work, so I am busy with the old guy I take care of all day long. But his really sweet wife gave me a card and was really sorry that I had to work, so that made it a bit better. I had a terrible day though, was all depressed, and found that I have the most inconvenient crush in the world! It is sooo not fair that I am not able to love the person out right and not have them hate me for life.

Anyway, I decided that I should be nice to myself and went to the Cinema,I saw Vanity Fair, again. I know, I know, I said that I really didn't like it, and I didn't the first time, I seem to have warmed to it, though I still hated most of the characters after it was all over...=rolls eyes= and that is how my Birthday went... Oh, I am supposed to have a dinner date with my aunt and uncle who are visiting from Brazil... they speak only Portuguese, Spanish and French, thank Goddess I speak Spanish and a little Portuguese, and understand a bit of French. Ahh, I hope that goes well. Hope that they don't try to convert me.

Well I think that I had better go before this get entirely too long. Toots

~Danneh~

This Has been insipired by Jaz

Okay this is for you to answer... and you had better!

Do I know you...(such a copycat I know=rollseyes=)

Would you love me if I wasn't gay?

Why do you look at me like that?

Do you know my most longed for desire in the whole damn world?

What would you do if....

I lost the love of my life?

Wanted to die?

Got mistreated by my family?

Hated you? (I don't know... what else?)

Why?.....

Are you my friend? (are you really?)

Do you put up with all of my sniviling shit?

Do you say you love me?

Do you waste you precious time talking to me?

Do you love me?

I love all of my friends, and some of them I swear I could love in more than one way, but it is not for me to say who here....=blushes= I love you all, I hope that we never ever hate eachother, never!

Peas

Toots

~Danneh

Whyyyy issss this.....

Blog making problems?

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v144/LadyxEowyn/hpthrawyn.jpg

Thank you soooo much Isie! Wow! This is great....=swoons= I loove her!!


~Danneh~

Death

Beauty to surpass all those I have
Seen in life. His face is that of a god,
Made to enchant the simpleton such as I.
Sighs of pleasure filled longing
Permeate my being, as the love of my
Soul passes me by. I cry out in pain
And unfulfilled love strikes me down
As he denies me yet again.
Sweet Lord Death come to me my love,
Take me from this world mundane
And show me the pleasure of
The final dying pain.
My soul it begs for you
As a desperate lover
Crying for the one it loves….

Gah!!

This thing wont let me post!!!!!!

=screams=

I think I may write a letter... =rolls eyes=

Never say never damnit!

Morose madness
Yes I have learned the meaning of the word.....
Here goes:

Cover me with open arms so that I will not fall. Hold my heart so they can see it all of them. Hold me close while the push me away, stop them from hurting me. Cold stones to replace their eyes but still their gaze does not change. Waves of worth and helpless thoughts roll over my unprotected face. Close you mouth, its hurting me, I stop my ears in order to hear the self acusing voices that ring deep down inside. But still they sound so hollow, empty and not alive. Open up your thoughts to me so that I needn't suffer so forgetfully. Sacred nothingness of holy things. Stop your ears in order to hear the voices deep down inside. This jealous woe to cover my love, show me a different kind of variety. Forget the pangs that push you down into a deeper pain than this life you have ever known. Indifferent to help, you couldn't care less, they hurl their love at you and still you stand oblivious to all the comforts they give. You'd rather the death so I give it to you, open your arms to receive it home once again. Rejoice thou, destroyed by love, your wish has come! Sweet death embrace us now to hold forever more.

Meh, that was long, yes?
Errrr..... Well yeah... okay I'll post the next seperately.

~Danneh~

MOSHER DINKLEBRAIN.

I love you.

You love me.

We are one bloody awesome family.

with a -kiss-

And a -hug-

From me to yooou.

I love you.

And you love me tooooo.

xD I posted.

I lurve you.

I feel ya, when your upset, or depressed.

I lurve you.

=Snarl= Brought the wrong notebook

Damn, I have done it again. I was going to type up a few of my newer poems, but what do I do? I grab the wrong notebook and I don't have any of them! Gah! And I am too damn lazy to go allllll the way back to my room to fetch the right one.... =kicks self= and now is my uncles birthday party =vomits all over= and soon it will be mine!! Wooo! Can't wait really. I am tired of my family, and when I get to Japan I shall make a new blog, one to be my journal for my friends and the whole world to read while I am away =knows that now that he has said that no one will ever read it= =rolls eyes= Ah well Talk more later, I was going to stay on longer tonight, but I have to work tomorrow.

Oh, I almost forgot, I went and saw Vanity Fair last night and I thought it was a dreafully sloooow film, but Reese was absolutely sexy and damn if that was really her singing I want her to record and album! Tha was awesome I would actually like to get the soundtrack for that film. Oh and I saw a preview for another film about a lady that helped girls have abortions... looked quite interesting actually, I think it looks like quite a slow film also I still want to see it. There were a few others that I would not mind seeing also, but I daresay that I won't till they come out on DVD... =Rolls eyes= Toots

~Danneh~!

What of what?

Okay first of all I would like to say that I am very confused at the moment, and I feel like whining and complainig so here goes.
I am bored as hell, lonely in the midst of this throng. I hate my life, but love it too much to lose. Goddess help me I'm confused. To hell with trying to see the best in everything, it just makes me more depressed and I feel like screaming. Ahhh what of what is what I would ask you, what shall I do for this heartache that doesn't involve cutting it out or piercing it through, it has had enough damage damnit and can't take any more. What do you want from me? Why won't you leave me alone. I want someone to hold my hand and whisper sweet nothings to me, but I scream in pain as they look at me. I want to die but don't know how. Hatred is bad for me they say, but o it feels so right keeping your pain in my sight.

Oh, damn don't let go, keep me in your arm till I die..........

Bleh.... Toots

~Danneh~

Morose weirdness

What the hell does Morose mean?

Close the door and leave the light on. Stop the nonsense so I can hear myself, I want to know just what it is that keeps you from bargaining with my soul. I want that death that passes me by I want to live that endless pain, taken always in frustration and trying hard not to maim the woderous beauty that keeps me haunted in this nothingness rambling this endless stream of empty words. Not stoping to see if life could be what I asked for so long ago, just a little reprieve that keeps my heart from bursting over this open flame that they call something of love.... Damn love, where the hell did the idea come from anyway? Why when I could have been happy by myself I had to happen along his path.... what is love the say... pain and hurt and hate and love all over again, finally death for us all.... life again? Give me death! that is my cry sweet death for whom my very soul shivers with pleasure at the thought of his lithe arms enveloping me in that sickly embrace. Ahhhhhh the pleasureable misery.....

=sigh= I could go on foreeeever! damn I am fecking bored. Hang on I will be back with another post soon, I just has to go and get my notebook, I have a few lovely poems that I wrote today.... mostly nonsense like that above, but lovely all the same. o_O Ya.... Toots.... if I don't get to it tonight then perhaps tomorrow...if I can find time that is, I has to work =fuck= and a lot of other shit... Omgoddess, I am swearing.... that must mean that I am tired... yeah... sorry if I don't come back tonight..... =bleh=

~Danneh~

O My Gooodness

I just noticed that Josh made a comment on a post that I posted somewhere near the end of August.... I just want to say sorry that I never acknowledged you Josh!! O.O I didn't mean to be rude as that. I will start reading your Blog too, thanks for reading mine! Oh and I wanted to contact you.... but you only seem to have AOL.... I did too, but this damn computer is rubbish and wont let me do what I want. =rolls eyes=

Thanks much!

Toots

~Danneh~

I am mad

Thanks a buuunch Jaz.

I am mad that this damn blog ERASED a whole lovely poem that I wrote the other night out of pure inspiration and I just wrote it, then when I pushed publish it wouldn't work and it ERASED EVERYTHING! I was soooooo mad @$#%R@#$@!!

ah well..

Toots

~Danneh~

And you say i Never post..

I SHALL SAY WHAT I WANT ABOUT THOSE ROHAN PEOPLE.

They can go ...........

DIE.

Actually no. Thats a bit too mean for me.

i dont want anyone to die.

I want you too stop worrying baout what people think..and about being a mod.

Its soo stupid. You deserve to be around better kewler people. And you KNOW they ae not good to you. So just shut up about it.

Well anyway. THANKS FOR THE VOTE. I LOVE YOU LIKE OMIGOD SO MUCH!!!!