Scattered thoughts
Sudden darkness veils my mind and I am lost in a haze of forgetfulness. I linger in that place between sheer joy and utter despair. I have started my new job and I am hoping and praying that everything will go as smoothly that I first hoped that it would. sometimes I think that I will never be able to reach that goal and I will stay here to rot in the infernal embrace of my family's religious fanaticisim. Forget the fact that I am tortured mentally and spiritually, daily, and I cannot get out any other way than I have planned to do, but alas, all good things take time.... No?
Si... asi es, lo que quieres mas de todo no lo puedes tener.... sin dolor.... asi es.
That is the story of my sad life, but then it leads me to think... am I the only one? Of course not! How blasphemous to even let the thought cross my mind, form within my weak conciousnous. Bad Karma that.
Ah well, I suppose that I am fated to gather bad Karma to myself seeing that most everything that I do seems to plague me and haunt my waking dreams. I see visions of the future and visions of the past, I am haunted by the gohsts of those that hate me and those I thought loved me.... but alas, I am lost and unaware of my physical surroundings unless they should strike out and harm me or let me know that they are there in some other way.
Nonsense so they say... but that is what they always say is it not? Ha ha ahhhh...
Let it all go... to nothingness. wither and die in this pleasant hell...
goodbye.
PEAS out
~Danny
Si... asi es, lo que quieres mas de todo no lo puedes tener.... sin dolor.... asi es.
That is the story of my sad life, but then it leads me to think... am I the only one? Of course not! How blasphemous to even let the thought cross my mind, form within my weak conciousnous. Bad Karma that.
Ah well, I suppose that I am fated to gather bad Karma to myself seeing that most everything that I do seems to plague me and haunt my waking dreams. I see visions of the future and visions of the past, I am haunted by the gohsts of those that hate me and those I thought loved me.... but alas, I am lost and unaware of my physical surroundings unless they should strike out and harm me or let me know that they are there in some other way.
Nonsense so they say... but that is what they always say is it not? Ha ha ahhhh...
Let it all go... to nothingness. wither and die in this pleasant hell...
goodbye.
PEAS out
~Danny
1 Comments:
Danny, may I tell you first that your words are very touching and you are by far very talented. I feel for you and can hear your pain. I don't know who you are but I know what I sense. I wish I could take all your pains away from you and give you new life. You should contemplate on writing a book. Your poems are absoultely beautiful and heartfelt. I am here with you if only in thoughts and prayers. As a survivor of many abuses, I had no life as a child. Today, I share my foolishness with my daughters and have learned so much from my pain. Good luck with your new job and keep your head above water. You will survive this havoc set upon your life and share with others as it will help others grow in spirit with you. Nopuedesereso
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